whats wrong with me
There is a deep sense within myself that something is wrong. However, I have come to accept that this is not new and caused by anything external. I realize that I have dealt with this for a long time, but I was fortunate enough that life was busy enough to distract. That was made clear to me during Covid quarantine when life slowed down and there was a lot less to do in my everyday life. I started feeling much more sad and just sort of drowned in it. I'm not sure if anyone knew I felt that way at the time. Sometimes I want to tell people, but I feel as if I am doing it for attention. This disappeared for a while during college, but now after graduating and starting work... everything is coming back slowly. Work is pretty separate from my daily life so it's not distracting enough. I mean I don't even want to distract myself from this, I want to get better, but I don't know what to do.
I just want to feel better and have control over what I feel.