emotions as a kid
i dont think i ever properly explored the way i was treated when I reacted emotionally as a child by my family. sometimes i think about it and it was just so ridiculous. people always called me soft because i cried often. maybe i do cry often, but i was often put down because i liked watching anime or playing video games. video games is a waste of time. watching cartoons is for children. man i was like fucking 10. and then any time i got angry for whatever reason. it was like WOW you are just like your dad and grandfather, cannot control your anger. but like im getting rage baited bruh. sigh... i do think these experiences has made me more kind to people when they lose emotional control. while i dont advocate for total loss, the reality is that there should be no judgement for expression